Ashen-Star-Eclipse

I live.

Hm... what's happened lately... I switched stores, and went from working 8 hours a week to 25-35. I will be going back to school in two weeks. I still hate the distance between me and my boyfriend, though we did get to meet in May for a few days. It wasn't long enough.

My Tumblr now has a lot of long distance relationship stuff on it.

My creative side is all going in to RPs at the moment. I love RPs. I still crave romance RPs (well, more like RPs with romance. I freaking adore fluff.) Sadly, it means I'm doing nothing on DA. Eh, not a big deal. My DA has become like my facebook - I use it to 'stalk' people... and not much else. xD

Either I've been super stressed out lately, or I have finally snapped.

Because the littlest things are driving me absolutely crazy.

Like people not responding to messages. And I'm 'I know you've been online, answer me, damn you~!!!'. When I know it's only been a day, and usually I have more patience than this, but...right now I'm tempted to rattle the computer screen, as if that would somehow make a reply appear.

And I've been crying a lot. All the time. Over stupid things. Like someone online being snarky to me. Or the fact that I couldn't figure out what to make for supper. Because it makes sense to cry over those things.

A good thing in my life is my boyfriend. He's been lovely about all of this. *huggles him* Admittedly, he only has to deal with it online, and doesn't have to deal with sobbing Ashen up close and personal, but... still. He's just... *cuddles*

But. Still. Frustration.

Partially because I need to get a job for more than eight hours a friggin' week. Seriously. Who can live off that? And I haven't heard from any of the places I've applied to... *sigh*

I hate this. I'm just so. Ugh.

I could really use some happy-take-my-mind-off-things-RPing/news/drawings/something... *sigh*

Step 1.

Make a post in your dA journal (the manual INCLUDED - I wont grant any wishes, if I see no manual). The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Step 2.

Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

Step 3.

The list:

1. Drawings of my OCs. ^^ any of them.

2. Fandom jewelry/trinkets (Doctor Who, Legend of Zelda)

3. A plane ticket so I can see my boyfriend *huggles him*

4. A sappy and kinda snarky River/11 fic.

5. A computer that can do all the things I need it to, and I won't have to worry about it crapping out on me...

6. A corset that will fit me.

7. No, seriously, art of my OCs. Particularly if I ship them with someone.

8. A job that I can actually get some hours in and earn some money.

9. A RP that doesn't die, with someone other than my boyfriend. (I love RPing with him, but I need a bit of a change)

10. Drawing lessons.


If Santa or his elves would like to contact me, they can send me a note here. ^^

So. I have decided. I'm going to write a novel...

But not a good one.

I want to see just how bad/sappy/eye-rolling a novel I can write... and then see if I can get it published.

For the lolz.

So. Just in case anyone wants to help me, how about leaving something stereotypically 'romance' novel like? Like, for example, something for a title, or part of a title. Or a name, for the 'heroine'. Or something like that.

Sounds fun, doesn't it?

^-^

I really wish I was less impatient about some things. Like...cooking (Most of the time I'm all: cook it on high, burn baby burn! (and yet, things turn out well and not you know, burnt, most the time. I don't know why. I'm not complaining.)) or waiting for people to reply to me/my posts, or for work to end and I could just go home. And some things I am very patient about...though I'm not sure I could give an example. There are some, but well, I'm too impatient to list them.

Seriously, though. If someone doesn't reply to me in what I think is a reasonable amount of time, and I don't see them online, I think 'OMG, they died. They got in a car crash/their house burnt down/someone killed them in their sleep and they died.' (Yes, I actually do think that. Yes, I am a freaking weirdo.) And then, if I do see them online, and they haven't replied, I think 'Omg, I said something wrong, they hate me/don't want to talk to me.' (Again, I'm a freaking weirdo. A socially inept weirdo.)

A pale, socially inept weirdo who forgot to apply sunscreen and is now a nice, very attractive pink. Bah. >.<

(This journal really has no thought flow. Or, rather, it is mostly just 'thought flow'. Yay, stream-of-consciousness(ish) journal? No? Okay...)